Friday, May 15, 2009

With Apologies to Novick, Eric and Rachel

As the one year anniversary of my cancer diagnosis approaches, some thoughts:

One year ago, my diet consisted mainly of fresh fruits and vegetables, whole grains, high quality protein, and chocolate.
Today, I eat hot dogs, convenience foods, Chick-fil-A and chocolate.

One year ago, a drink before dinner meant martini.
Today, it means V-8.

One year ago, I avoided the medical community like the plague.
Today, I owe my life to David Rodriguez, Paul Scheinberg, Dan Dubovsky, Nancy Wiggers, John Moore, Roy Herbst and a host of other physicians, nurses, PA's and medical professionals.

One year ago, I was vigilant in taking steps for the prevention and early detection of melanoma, and breast, colon, ovarian and cervical cancer.
Today, I have lung cancer.

One year ago, MD Anderson was just a cluster of buildings in Houston.
Today, I have a patient number.

One year ago, I stepped on the scale and hoped it would show that I lost weight.
Today, I step on the scale and keep my fingers crossed that I did not lose any.

One year ago, I felt empowered by my roles as attorney, law partner and boss.
Today, I feel empowered by something completely different.

One year ago, I was disheartened as John and I struggled to find a high school for Brent that could meet his needs, which we were told would be impossible to meet in public school.
Today, Brent is finishing his freshman year at Milton High School with honors, thriving and happy.

One year ago I believed that if I had to be admitted to the hospital for any reason, that I was in trouble.
Today, I believe that if I have to be admitted to the hospital for any reason, that I am in trouble.

One year ago, I took so much for granted.
Today, I don't.

CT scan on Monday.
Stay tuned for results.
xoxoxox

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thank G-d you're here a year later and of course more appreciative.We all are. We are praying for more good news. Good luck this week.Love, prayers and strength to you. Michelle S

sandplay said...

One year ago I was less thankful and appreciative of so many things,
Thanks for sharing your year and your insights...looking forward to hearing more about NED and having many new and wonderful adventures with you.

Terri said...

Wishing you great news tomorrow. I enjoy your pictures and stories and am so glad Milton has turned out to be a good place for Brent. My boys were both happy there. Zach has 2 more exams this week and he will be through with his first year in law school. Time goes by so fast. We are leaving for Alaska Friday & will be back on the 29th. Thinking of you.

Terri

Susan said...

Last year I took a lot for granted. This year, due in much part to our friendship and your thoughtful and open sharing, I do not. I am so glad that you and your family are in the lives of our family. We are all with you as you journey forward especially, tomorrow. Sending great big HUGS!
Susan

Anonymous said...

Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for NED results on the CT scan! What a difference a year makes...big hugs,
Lorie

Rachel said...

Novick, Eric and Rachel not only forgive you for riffing off the wedding toast, they are honored to have provided material for the blog.
Hoping all is as good as it was last time, or much much better! xxooo

Anonymous said...

Glad you're ALIVE, appreciating the NOW, and with purpose, making your future. Love and my prayers coming your way!