The Four Questions according to Elyse:
Why is my cancer treatment different from all other cancer treatments?
1. All other treatments that include radiation and chemotherapy run them consecutively. Why are my treatments concurrent?
2. All other chemotherapy treatments are administered every 21 days. Why are mine weekly?
3. Many cancer patients do not lose their hair. Why must I?
4. Typically, cancer patients receiving chemotherapy have ports. Why don't I?
Questions 1 and 2 - The answers seem obvious. I am receiving VAT. Very Aggressive Treatment. There are clearly physical challenges associated with VAT. For one, I have to be at St. Jo's every weekday. Thursdays are out due to chemo, Fridays are iffy, and Saturdays and Sundays are rough. So that just leaves Mon-Tues-Weds. With chemotherapy every 7 days, it leaves very little time for me to make concrete social, work and exercise plans. I have been told that patients on the 21 day chemo cycle can have good weeks between treatments.
Question 3 - Fine Georgia Whine. Move on.
Question 4 - Dubovsky indicated that he intended to avoid any unnecessary invasive procedure. I like to think he is being optimistic, but that is only my speculation.
In short, not every day, or every part of the day is great. The ultimate planning machine is now barred from one of the things she does best. But in some intangible ways my strength is growing. I know that I have the resolve to beat this, and at times I can actually feel that determination. And do not discount, for even a single second, that every email, get well card, helping hand, telephone call, blog comment, and virtual and real hug that I receive does not fuel that strength.
So I take my little steps and move forward. I have been resting up all morning, I will get my radiation treatment, and I will get in one more nap before the concert tonight.
I know it's only Rock and Roll (ha!), but I like it. Thank you for helping me get there.
With love, and more apologies to Mick and crew,