Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Medical Industrial Complex Day III

The day started a little easier, sleeping in until 7:30 (instead of 5:15) and being able to eat breakfast (instead of fasting). The rest of the day was spent inside the MIC (not your MIC Ruth). I had one test that a normal person would probably think was unpleasant but to which I am now immune. I also met with three physicians. It was another intense day. I feel as immersed as ever in this alien world. Despite my upbeat attitude, this experience has been difficult. No one will tell me that my cancer is gone and it will never come back. Instead, physicians convey what little information they have about my limited options, we continue to review test results, and we move toward a decision. It is a laborious process, physically and emotionally.

I am thankful for the opportunity to consult medical personnel who are trying to make things better for me and for all lung cancer patients. I am equally grateful for their endless compassion. I have another test tomorrow and an appointment with a physician on Friday morning when I am scheduled to leave. Today, I do not have the answer I came for, but on Friday I will likely have all the information I need to make a decision. Regardless, no decision is a cure.

I spent the evening being inspired by a friend of Neil and Liz's who was not expected to survive her cancer. Here she is, 11 years later, looking more like she survived an afternoon at a spa than radiation, chemotherapy, and two recurrences. Thanks, Holly. You make it look doable, if not easy.

BTW, even if I wasn't fighting cancer, I would still have disliked Pineapple Express.


Steve Beagle said...

Ali - sounds like you are in the middle rounds and they are popping you quite a bit and your cut man is not helping you.. You will know what to do.. your strength and faith will open the door to any decisions you need to make..

Love and Prayers - Steve

Some of my favorite "Alisms.."

It isn't the mountains ahead to climb that wear you out; it's the pebble in your shoe."

"Float like a butterfly.
Sting like a bee.
Your hands can't hit
what your eyes can't see."

"My way of joking is to tell the truth.
That's the funniest joke in the world."

"Silence is golden when you can't think of a good answer."

"If you even dream of beating me you'd better wake up and apologize."

"A rooster crows only when it sees the light. Put him in the dark and he'll never crow. I have seen the light and I'm crowing."

"Rivers, ponds, lakes and streams — they all have different names, but they all contain water. Just as religions do — they all contain truths."


To keep you up to date with late night...

John McCain has been accused of stealing policy ideas from Wikipedia. That’s ridiculous — everyone knows John McCain doesn’t know how to use the Internet.

Barack Obama said today he wouldn’t raise taxes on anyone over 70 . . . and McCain said Obama was just pandering to the youth vote.

A Republican politician form Idaho has endorsed Barack Obama. The last time a Republican switched sides was in an airport men's room.

The Unibomber, Ted Kaczynski, wrote a letter from jail saying he’s angry that his cabin is now on display in a museum. Well, they think that’s what the letter says . . . everyone’s afraid to open it.

Anonymous said...

Hi Elyse:
Glad to hear your test week is almost done. Sounds pretty grueling to me, though I'm glad the staff out there have treated you well.
Thanks for sparing us Pineapple Express. Last week, before Olympics,I rented "Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanamo" and though it's also a "stoner" film; it's hilarious. You'll love the digs at Bush.
I wish you continued strength and will catch up when you return.
Love, Ellen